I am doing better in some ways. I am trying to be more disciplined and less distracted. Spending less time on the things that are not important feels better, and spending more time on the things that are important to me is the discipline. Not everything that is important is something I want to do, […]
Read more "Tu Undes Regis"I do not know why it happens, but every moment of happiness that I endure reminds me that it isn’t for me. That whatever joy or feelings it brings is meant for someone else. That I am an actor, and what I say or do is almost a script, as if I need to convince […]
Read more "Why Do I Always Have to Run?"This morning, as we stood in the midnight air, we noticed a ring around the moon. “A moon ring,” my companion said. I was informed it happens when crystals in the sky catch light reflected from the moon. Light that has already been reflected from the sun. Recycled light, in a way. I don’t think […]
Read more "22° Halo"I have to get serious now. I have to walk straight into fear, as I have done before, but this time it seems so much more real. For this time, I have made myself responsible for broken feelings and the soul of someone I care so much about that I fear running the same course […]
Read more "All That There Was"November once again, and as always it brings a certain darkness with it. This year is a little different, as the darkness was with me long before the month began. I have struggled with many things, but what I find most difficult is that I cannot seem to write the way I want to, or […]
Read more "Eleven Two"My grandmother wrote a book. It took her twenty years and she died far too soon after she had finished it, but she did finish it. She saw it published and read. I have read it several times, but it is a single sentence that stays with me. A line I have said to myself […]
Read more "Courage (and love)"
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