I experienced something I never expected. It left me feeling cold and emotionless, not far from my usual state, but in a different way. I hardly felt it at all and yet I feel I should have. I feel as though it may find me later, maybe months or years down the road. My significant […]
Read more "Without Resonance"Routines are life. Repetition is life, at least for most of us. The days pass at a rate or normalcy we become accustomed to and regardless of how much we despise such a routine and unvaried life we continue to follow it. In simple terms, it is hard to break free. February 14, 2018 2:30PM […]
Read more "Incandescent"I never allowed my acquaintances to get too close, and even my friends know very little of me. It is intentional, and I will likely remain this way, as I feel no need to burden others with this nonsense that plagues me. Even you do not have to read this, it is simply a choice […]
Read more "Interred"Anxiety is crushing. I’d expand but you either know the feeling or you do not. So anxiety is crushing, but so is gravity. Gravity did not stop us from shooting for the moon did it? It does not stop us from trying to play baseball. Can you escape gravity? Certainly…just break through the atmosphere. If […]
Read more "Deontologist"A rough few days will turn into a rough few weeks and a rough few years if you let it. Easier said than done, but don’t let it. You control every minute of how you feel, even if you don’t see it that way. Even when you feel like you have no control. It is […]
Read more "22:32-22:47"I’ve spent a great deal of time mapping out what I wanted to, but as we all find out, life will not go according to plan. I’ve re-drawn the map dozens of time in my mind, but it doesn’t matter; it’ll change again. This time I changed it myself, but I’m still unsure if it’s […]
Read more "Cartographs"I’ve subscribed to Loneliness. It seems to suit me well, and I’ve found comfort in it more often than not I suppose. Free from the responsibility of the care of others, and a sadness that reminds me of happier times, loneliness is something I’ve come to know so well. I have become well adjusted to […]
Read more "Lifetime Subscription"Just because I see the cracks in the mirror, doesn’t mean anyone else will. I’ve taken the time to study myself. I said I’d be here all year, but I realized that I write this for myself, and so far I’ve only needed it in November. But today brought me something else. When I […]
Read more "Self Preservation"The white flag is a sign of surrender. In recent years, I’ve refused to quit anything I’ve started. I’ve created a set of values for myself, and decided to stick to them, regardless of the consequences. If you remember Rule Number One, then you will remember that I do not tolerate disrespect. I have stood […]
Read more "Paint it Red"I’ve come to realize there is no hidden meaning most of the time. Things just happen, often at inconvenient times. That does not mean that we will enjoy what happens, or that it can somehow benefit us; but whatever it is, it is going to happen. “What happened, happened and couldn’t have happened any other […]
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