My grandmother wrote a book. It took her twenty years and she died far too soon after she had finished it, but she did finish it. She saw it published and read. I have read it several times, but it is a single sentence that stays with me. A line I have said to myself […]
Read more "Courage (and love)"A friend recently responded to a letter I wrote and included the most perfect quote, as if they knew what I needed to hear. I read it, understood it, heard it loud and clear but still I sit and am overwhelmed with how to embrace its meaning. How do I stop doing everything I […]
Read more "Five-thousand"I had a small, planned procedure and knew I would be forced to sit around for a few days. I had grand plans of watching a few movies I’ve been wanting to see and writing as much as I could of that book I mentioned previously. It’s strange though as I haven’t done any of […]
Read more "Pipe Dream"It is as if everything is ending at once, but this happens every November. It is the season changing more than anything, because if anything ends this time of year, the cold weather, snow and lack of light arrive to remind you that there is no such thing as an endless summer here. Along side […]
Read more "Once More"I have found myself recently to be stuck in a way. It is hardly a matter of being able to make a decision, but more as if I feel I am running a marathon through the mud. It is as if every motion requires a calculation; how does turning this wrench help support my final […]
Read more "Forward, March"I experienced something I never expected. It left me feeling cold and emotionless, not far from my usual state, but in a different way. I hardly felt it at all and yet I feel I should have. I feel as though it may find me later, maybe months or years down the road. My significant […]
Read more "Without Resonance"Routines are life. Repetition is life, at least for most of us. The days pass at a rate or normalcy we become accustomed to and regardless of how much we despise such a routine and unvaried life we continue to follow it. In simple terms, it is hard to break free. February 14, 2018 2:30PM […]
Read more "Incandescent"I never allowed my acquaintances to get too close, and even my friends know very little of me. It is intentional, and I will likely remain this way, as I feel no need to burden others with this nonsense that plagues me. Even you do not have to read this, it is simply a choice […]
Read more "Interred"Anxiety is crushing. I’d expand but you either know the feeling or you do not. So anxiety is crushing, but so is gravity. Gravity did not stop us from shooting for the moon did it? It does not stop us from trying to play baseball. Can you escape gravity? Certainly…just break through the atmosphere. If […]
Read more "Deontologist"A rough few days will turn into a rough few weeks and a rough few years if you let it. Easier said than done, but don’t let it. You control every minute of how you feel, even if you don’t see it that way. Even when you feel like you have no control. It is […]
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