22° Halo

This morning, as we stood in the midnight air, we noticed a ring around the moon. “A moon ring,” my companion said. I was informed it happens when crystals in the sky catch light reflected from the moon. Light that has already been reflected from the sun. Recycled light, in a way. I don’t think […]

All That There Was

I have to get serious now. I have to walk straight into fear, as I have done before, but this time it seems so much more real. For this time, I have made myself responsible for broken feelings and the soul of someone I care so much about that I fear running the same course […]

Eleven Two

November once again, and as always it brings a certain darkness with it. This year is a little different, as the darkness was with me long before the month began. I have struggled with many things, but what I find most difficult is that I cannot seem to write the way I want to, or […]

Courage (and love)

My grandmother wrote a book. It took her twenty years and she died far too soon after she had finished it, but she did finish it. She saw it published and read. I have read it several times, but it is a single sentence that stays with me. A line I have said to myself […]

“I Hate When Things Are Over”

I had to keep a journal for a class. I hated the assignment at first; I already kept my own journal and nothing among those pages was anything I was willing to write down on requirement. No one would be reading it, but still…I felt it was more of a burden than a release. But […]

cold

“Through endurance we conquer” – E. H. Shackleton I rediscovered fear recently, but not of anything I can see It is of my future, and where my life will be. I feel so alone at times, and I blame no one for this as I know I have done it to myself. It can […]

Up in the Air

“Mother Mary sings to me…” I feel as if I have less time than I used to. I described this feeling to my mother and she began to tell me of all the things I do now that I did not used to do, and that I’m much busier and thus I have less time. […]

Remember

I wish I remembered all of the things that mattered to me. I mean actually remember, not just that I went to a place or saw an event, but remember what was said and what I liked about it so much. I wish the pictures I took reminded me of something other than the sadness […]

Once More

It is as if everything is ending at once, but this happens every November. It is the season changing more than anything, because if anything ends this time of year, the cold weather, snow and lack of light arrive to remind you that there is no such thing as an endless summer here. Along side […]

Eight.Three

I wasn’t supposed to live this long. I shouldn’t have lived much past eighteen. I don’t know if I would have even made it that far; the doctors never said anything about that. And I was certain, even after I had been cleared, that something would come along and that would be the end. Eighteen […]

inthenovember

The anticipation of Light, from a new sun

sadness