I was watching a show earlier and one of the characters said to his brother “if you’re going to make it work, you’ve got to let go. You’ve got to let go of your past.” That is a difficult one for me. My past is so much of who I am today, and if I […]
Read more "Movement"Listen to piano music, and let it take you somewhere. I wanted to write tonight, but I don’t have much to say. I’ve been thinking a lot about time, because we have so little of it. It just gets away from me, and I hate that. I have things I want to do and things […]
Read more "Key Strokes"My grandmother wrote a book. It took her twenty years and she died far too soon after she had finished it, but she did finish it. She saw it published and read. I have read it several times, but it is a single sentence that stays with me. A line I have said to myself […]
Read more "Courage (and love)"A friend recently responded to a letter I wrote and included the most perfect quote, as if they knew what I needed to hear. I read it, understood it, heard it loud and clear but still I sit and am overwhelmed with how to embrace its meaning. How do I stop doing everything I […]
Read more "Five-thousand"I once said “I’m certain of two things in this life: It exists, and we never know what is going to happen tomorrow.” I have found this to be true many times, in fact more times than I would like. Sometimes, I’d like to know what tomorrow holds, I’d like to know what to expect […]
Read more "Tomorrow"“Through endurance we conquer” – E. H. Shackleton I rediscovered fear recently, but not of anything I can see It is of my future, and where my life will be. I feel so alone at times, and I blame no one for this as I know I have done it to myself. It can […]
Read more "cold"I had a small, planned procedure and knew I would be forced to sit around for a few days. I had grand plans of watching a few movies I’ve been wanting to see and writing as much as I could of that book I mentioned previously. It’s strange though as I haven’t done any of […]
Read more "Pipe Dream"I wish I remembered all of the things that mattered to me. I mean actually remember, not just that I went to a place or saw an event, but remember what was said and what I liked about it so much. I wish the pictures I took reminded me of something other than the sadness […]
Read more "Remember"It is as if everything is ending at once, but this happens every November. It is the season changing more than anything, because if anything ends this time of year, the cold weather, snow and lack of light arrive to remind you that there is no such thing as an endless summer here. Along side […]
Read more "Once More"I wasn’t supposed to live this long. I shouldn’t have lived much past eighteen. I don’t know if I would have even made it that far; the doctors never said anything about that. And I was certain, even after I had been cleared, that something would come along and that would be the end. Eighteen […]
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