Five-thousand

A friend recently responded to a letter I wrote and included the most perfect quote, as if they knew what I needed to hear. I read it, understood it, heard it loud and clear but still I sit and am overwhelmed with how to embrace its meaning. How do I stop doing everything I […]

Tomorrow

I once said “I’m certain of two things in this life: It exists, and we never know what is going to happen tomorrow.” I have found this to be true many times, in fact more times than I would like. Sometimes, I’d like to know what tomorrow holds, I’d like to know what to expect […]

cold

“Through endurance we conquer” – E. H. Shackleton I rediscovered fear recently, but not of anything I can see It is of my future, and where my life will be. I feel so alone at times, and I blame no one for this as I know I have done it to myself. It can […]

Pipe Dream

I had a small, planned procedure and knew I would be forced to sit around for a few days. I had grand plans of watching a few movies I’ve been wanting to see and writing as much as I could of that book I mentioned previously. It’s strange though as I haven’t done any of […]

Once More

It is as if everything is ending at once, but this happens every November. It is the season changing more than anything, because if anything ends this time of year, the cold weather, snow and lack of light arrive to remind you that there is no such thing as an endless summer here. Along side […]

Eight.Three

I wasn’t supposed to live this long. I shouldn’t have lived much past eighteen. I don’t know if I would have even made it that far; the doctors never said anything about that. And I was certain, even after I had been cleared, that something would come along and that would be the end. Eighteen […]

Forward, March

I have found myself recently to be stuck in a way. It is hardly a matter of being able to make a decision, but more as if I feel I am running a marathon through the mud. It is as if every motion requires a calculation; how does turning this wrench help support my final […]

Without Resonance

I experienced something I never expected. It left me feeling cold and emotionless, not far from my usual state, but in a different way. I hardly felt it at all and yet I feel I should have. I feel as though it may find me later, maybe months or years down the road. My significant […]

Incandescent

Routines are life. Repetition is life, at least for most of us. The days pass at a rate or normalcy we become accustomed to and regardless of how much we despise such a routine and unvaried life we continue to follow it. In simple terms, it is hard to break free. February 14, 2018 2:30PM […]

Interred

I never allowed my acquaintances to get too close, and even my friends know very little of me. It is intentional, and I will likely remain this way, as I feel no need to burden others with this nonsense that plagues me. Even you do not have to read this, it is simply a choice […]

inthenovember

The anticipation of Light, from a new sun

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