“I Hate When Things Are Over”

I had to keep a journal for a class. I hated the assignment at first; I already kept my own journal and nothing among those pages was anything I was willing to write down on requirement. No one would be reading it, but still…I felt it was more of a burden than a release. But […]

Up in the Air

“Mother Mary sings to me…” I feel as if I have less time than I used to. I described this feeling to my mother and she began to tell me of all the things I do now that I did not used to do, and that I’m much busier and thus I have less time. […]

Remember

I wish I remembered all of the things that mattered to me. I mean actually remember, not just that I went to a place or saw an event, but remember what was said and what I liked about it so much. I wish the pictures I took reminded me of something other than the sadness […]

Forward, March

I have found myself recently to be stuck in a way. It is hardly a matter of being able to make a decision, but more as if I feel I am running a marathon through the mud. It is as if every motion requires a calculation; how does turning this wrench help support my final […]

Without Resonance

I experienced something I never expected. It left me feeling cold and emotionless, not far from my usual state, but in a different way. I hardly felt it at all and yet I feel I should have. I feel as though it may find me later, maybe months or years down the road. My significant […]

Incandescent

Routines are life. Repetition is life, at least for most of us. The days pass at a rate or normalcy we become accustomed to and regardless of how much we despise such a routine and unvaried life we continue to follow it. In simple terms, it is hard to break free. February 14, 2018 2:30PM […]

Deontologist

Anxiety is crushing. I’d expand but you either know the feeling or you do not. So anxiety is crushing, but so is gravity. Gravity did not stop us from shooting for the moon did it? It does not stop us from trying to play baseball. Can you escape gravity? Certainly…just break through the atmosphere. If […]

22:32-22:47

A rough few days will turn into a rough few weeks and a rough few years if you let it. Easier said than done, but don’t let it. You control every minute of how you feel, even if you don’t see it that way. Even when you feel like you have no control. It is […]

Cartographs

I’ve spent a great deal of time mapping out what I wanted to, but as we all find out, life will not go according to plan. I’ve re-drawn the map dozens of time in my mind, but it doesn’t matter; it’ll change again. This time I changed it myself, but I’m still unsure if it’s […]

Lifetime Subscription

I’ve subscribed to Loneliness. It seems to suit me well, and I’ve found comfort in it more often than not I suppose. Free from the responsibility of the care of others, and a sadness that reminds me of happier times, loneliness is something I’ve come to know so well. I have become well adjusted to […]

inthenovember

The anticipation of Light, from a new sun

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