DECEMBER FOLLOWS

I do not know how I allowed it to happen, but November passed right by and I hardly noticed. I told myself nearly every day to write something, anything, so I could feel as though I had accomplished even the smallest of tasks that remind me of the life I intend to live. And the […]

Lost and Found / Forward, March

Pain, again. But I knew I’d end up here. I told her we would, and I was right because I know exactly who I am and what I do, and I’ve done it again. I am extremely loyal, in all aspects of my life, to the things that matter most to me. I have now […]

CLOSER, STILL

I saw a long time friend of the family last week, who I had not seen in quite some time. We talked some, more than we had in the past and certainly more than we had in recent memory. But it was what they said to my brother, who then relayed the following to me: […]

Cold Summer

I received my greatest compliment recently. In a betrayal of trust, someone close to me discovered my sadness, and the extent of it. When revealing this to me, they simply said “You are really good at hiding it.” I will forever be grateful for being told that. That has always been my goal, always been […]

Movement

I was watching a show earlier and one of the characters said to his brother “if you’re going to make it work, you’ve got to let go. You’ve got to let go of your past.” That is a difficult one for me. My past is so much of who I am today, and if I […]

All That There Was

I have to get serious now. I have to walk straight into fear, as I have done before, but this time it seems so much more real. For this time, I have made myself responsible for broken feelings and the soul of someone I care so much about that I fear running the same course […]

On Second Thought

I wrote “A Place For Things” as I was walking out the door. There was no time to add a picture and I just read through it once to see if I made any spelling errors. That’s one of the things I like about it though, it was quick and I did not have time […]

Eleven Two

November once again, and as always it brings a certain darkness with it. This year is a little different, as the darkness was with me long before the month began. I have struggled with many things, but what I find most difficult is that I cannot seem to write the way I want to, or […]

Courage (and love)

My grandmother wrote a book. It took her twenty years and she died far too soon after she had finished it, but she did finish it. She saw it published and read. I have read it several times, but it is a single sentence that stays with me. A line I have said to myself […]

Five-thousand

A friend recently responded to a letter I wrote and included the most perfect quote, as if they knew what I needed to hear. I read it, understood it, heard it loud and clear but still I sit and am overwhelmed with how to embrace its meaning. How do I stop doing everything I […]

inthenovember

The anticipation of Light, from a new sun

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