Listen to piano music, and let it take you somewhere.

I wanted to write tonight, but I don’t have much to say. I’ve been thinking a lot about time, because we have so little of it. It just gets away from me, and I hate that. I have things I want to do and things that should be done and if too much time passes these things can lose their meaning. I owed a friend a letter and even though I drafted it in late June, it is being sent out in late July, and even mid June would have been late. I fear that they might think it wasn’t important to me, or that I wasn’t interested in what they had to say. Both of these things are quite the opposite in fact; I very much look forward to reading their words.

And here I am…on the run again. I’ve got somewhere to be. And I don’t want to have to rush there, but I will nonetheless. There is only so much time in the day. So I’ll finish this later.

August_

I started writing this July 29. And I said I’d come back to it and here I am…August 22. What troubles me the most is I feel as though I have little time but that I am also accomplishing little. This is what they call time management I suppose and apparently I need to do better. If I spend my time doing the things that I used to do, the writing and hiking and wandering, what would I miss that I am doing now? What will I miss if I don’t ever do those things again? I felt as though those were productive to me, and without them I do more of what “regular” people do; spend time with acquaintances doing what they suggested, because all of the things I enjoy doing I do alone. That never bothered me, and I miss it. I miss the solitude and sense of fulfillment. I’ll have to find my way back.

You should too. Find your way back, and if it is a place you haven’t been yet, find your way forward. It is all really forward anyway, as time only moves in one direction. I have to figure this out, and so do you. But what I like about myself here, is that I know what I need to do. I know I need to keep pressing forward. I just have to convince myself to do it.

I’ll be back again. Hopefully it will not take so long. But even if it does, I’ll be back. Stay true to your cause. Find your way. The darkness I face will just have to come with me. After all, the sun can’t rise in the morning if it does not set at night.