On Second Thought

I wrote “A Place For Things” as I was walking out the door. There was no time to add a picture and I just read through it once to see if I made any spelling errors. That’s one of the things I like about it though, it was quick and I did not have time to adjust the words in any way. It is written as they came to me. So I find myself wondering which is better, to plan out what I want to say and say it nice, or to just let the words flow as they come.

This is the follow up. This is where I explain myself and where I remind you that just because something was done in haste does not mean it has to be left that way. It is okay to re-visit and make it right, even if it was not wrong. Really all I’m asking is for you to understand, not just me, but whatever it is in your life that you thought “that’s it” and “that’s just how it is.” Consider that maybe there is more to it. Consider that maybe, just maybe, what you thought you knew or had figured out was only the first version, the rough draft, the unedited and uncut. Maybe it takes a second chance or second thought. Maybe it is time away or words not said. I’ve done it. I’ve been wrong before.

I have a 1907 Webster’s Dictionary. It is the largest book I own, and it is in rough shape. It was my grandmother’s. It’s in a box on the floor of my bedroom because I have no other place for it. I have people in my life who would find that funny, who would think it strange to keep such an old book that I do not use or have a place for. I have people who would know exactly why I keep it. I have people who will never know about it, and that is what I like about my life. All of these different people, none of them friends but all of them acquaintances.

So I can tell you what I like about myself, and what I don’t. I can tell you where I made mistakes and where I think I did the right thing. I have a place for some things but not for others. Maybe that’s what this is about; words I have a place for and the words I do not. Maybe on second thought means I didn’t change my mind, but that I had a second additional thought. And this is where I put them. Thank you for reading, and if there is ever anything that you didn’t quite understand, just ask, because sometimes the words make sense to me until they’re on the page.

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